yr dum

im not clever, im not cute
im not a piece of shit
im not like you.

there is nothing i can say to express who i am
and there is nothing i can do to pretend i am the man i want to be
there is always someone in the way of the woman i want to see
and there is nowhere i can hide to run away from me
there is no sense in trying to explain what i mean
because in the end i will always be someone i never wanted to be
i guess me and myself is all i need.

i remember your cold tongue around my brain
the words you mumbled,
the fear of getting sick,
and the moment i knew you were sucking someone elses dick.

compose

i watched the sun rise and i watched it set
i saw it as it came and as it went
and very moment wasted was a moment never spent
was this misery all i was meant
never will i sleep and as the time goes so does my resent
may this night end my torment
like all things, my life will consent
no one watched as the sun came or as it went

take good care of them for me.

love is lush green
have it fill this room
may it always be like this
let the sun know no moon
have earth show us her garden
and watch as her children bloom
have us take flight
and listen to the avians croon
i wish we couldn't fly
because your eyes are what i've been falling into
look upon our canvas,
no men are sad, empty are their saloons
settle on our made bed
and feel our hearts beat a much different tune
don't speak, let there be no volume
there is something i've wanted to say, and its well overdue
i'd rather die alone
then live without you

directed by me

frame by frame, you would walk by
past vaudeville and after
the color never came, nor did sound
text was shown every so often
"why am i here"
"this wasn't what i wanted"
"what the fuck is wrong with me"
the reel had skipped many scenes these 6 years
the moments of happiness
cheer, glee, and love
were not there
i wrote happiness
i wrote love
this was my script and i had directed this
where is my creation?

drink by drink, you would cross my mind
you were my star
the great romantic
heart warming
sensual
perfect
i never thought i could write you to be happy
but couldn't direct you.
my great romance
my all to real tragedy
the romance with no love
the lips with no smile
the heart without me
this was our film but this was my mistake.

you didn't mind so much.

in this case only,
the sequel's are better anyways

cloudy

i will bury myself in ash